I'm Not Mrs. Soandso

I get a little sad at times.  I can't keep up with blogging every memory, capturing everything in video and photos.  I know I've failed in a few areas.  I've missed capturing first steps better, or all the silly things my girls say.  I've got about 100 started blogs in my draft pile.  I go back through pictures I have taken and get sad that it has gone too fast, that I don't have more pictures and videos and blog posts, that I wasn't better.  I'm disappointed that Leta and Annie are 2 and we are yet to take professional family pictures.

I know it is silly to try to live for the past.  That all the professional pictures in the world wouldn't change the outcome of the one big goal I have in life:  live worthy to keep my eternal family.  That I have a bright future smiling brightly before me and the past is pretty awesome too, even if my memory is fading and I never captured that picture of Ryan and I going for walks on cold winter nights with Lucy and Elsa in their Snugglies and then zipped up in our jackets so that only their round little baby heads poked out.  Blogging, videoing, photography...I have to remind myself again and again that it is okay to not get it all.  I'm pretty sure my girls are going to grow up knowing I love them and that I provided them with opportunities for awesome memories even if the story of our life is missing a few pages and chapters and our pictures aren't always in the best lighting.  Got that Lucy and Elsa and Leta and Annie, Mrs. Soandso probably did a better job than your mom of capturing everything, but your mom loves you.  Thanks.